From Our Darkest Dark, Our Brightest Bright is Born

These recent views from our house breathed hope into my soul. There’s something about the short, dark days of this season that brings out and amplifies the darkness, down feelings, depression, and despair within us. Know what I mean? Still, the way the light pierced the clouds to bring an extra “sparkle” to the mountains, … Continue reading From Our Darkest Dark, Our Brightest Bright is Born

Grieving the Life I Lost

13 years ago today, the amazing life I had ended. In the blink of an eye, a quite successful career flying for the air force (where I also got to teach the best of the best) vanished, as did the future plans and dreams of my then fiancée (now ex-wife) and I. While life doesn’t … Continue reading Grieving the Life I Lost

Release to be Renewed

Nature has a lot to teach us. Autumn is a time of letting go, as fruits and veggies ripen to produce new offspring, while leaves gently fall to the ground. This letting go not only helps vegetation survive the winter, it plants the seeds for the eruption of new life in the Spring! The message … Continue reading Release to be Renewed

Love First … and Ask Questions Later

I did a 9/11 Reflection ride on the Peloton the other day—and amidst the many tears—two lessons from that time, which speak to today’s hurt and polarization, came to me: BE WITH and BE IN. To be with is when, no matter one’s religion, race, politics, gender, sexuality, etc., we 100% have each other’s backs. To be in is … Continue reading Love First … and Ask Questions Later

Letting Go to Letting Love In

This year, a major theme in my life has been: Letting go to let Love in. Turns out, there were things I was clinging to or striving for, which were “unplugging” me from life-giving love—filling me with insecurity, worry, stress, and anxiety. Deciding, in varying ways, to “let go”, has not only been massively freeing, it’s filled me with … Continue reading Letting Go to Letting Love In

Putting the “Well” in Our Mental Wellness

Sometimes things are not as they look. Granted, many sunsets from our street are beautiful (like this one), there’s also a lot going on "beneath the surface". Mud, dirt, pollution, predators, prey, death, and so on lie out of view. I point this out because, while the story isn't ours to share, mental health recently punched … Continue reading Putting the “Well” in Our Mental Wellness

Kindness Kickstarter

For years I was distant and disconnected from my family, and myself. Yet, my mom and sister kept pursuing me with kindness—truly wondering how I was doing, caring for me in my hurts, and wholeheartedly desiring the best for me. Kindness, it turns out, was not only the key to unlocking my once frozen heart, but … Continue reading Kindness Kickstarter

The Practice of Letting Go

One of the hardest and most rewarding things to do in life is to let go. Like parents often do, I had notions of who and how my daughter would be ... yet, to hold Lara to my vision for her, is to limit the rainbow splendor of creative possibilities that is this magical 16-year-old. … Continue reading The Practice of Letting Go

Our Darkest Dark Reveals Our Brightest Light

Darkness. What’s your relationship with it? As we approach the literal darkest day of the year, I’m reminded going fully INTO my metaphorical darkness is the path to my brightest lightness. It’s no mistake that Christmas, a celebration of Light, was originally on the winter solstice. It took truly facing the depths of my porn addiction, for … Continue reading Our Darkest Dark Reveals Our Brightest Light

Celebrating Life: The 12th Anniversary of the Day I Should Have Died

Today is my 12th rebirth day; as on 11/10/08 I should have died after a nightmarish chain of events led to me plummeting 30 feet off a cliff, headfirst onto a boulder. While I'm always hesitant to share this, "don't be boastful" says a voice in my head, I decided to anyway. 🙂 Aside from "12" … Continue reading Celebrating Life: The 12th Anniversary of the Day I Should Have Died